The Scariest Thing...

So a year ago from Friday my grandpa died...see i hardly knew him. But i knew he was a great guy. My mom loved him more than anything... which makes me sad. Fortunately nobody extremely close to me has died...but it scares me. When it happens how will i react? How will i be able to go on through life without them or just knowing that there not "there?" I mean millions die everyday... but when it hits close to home...

On Friday i stayed home with my mom cause i just knew she needed me...of course she didn't say anything...we just watched movies...not a word was said. But somehow i feel like it made all the difference. It was like the most amazing night of nothing. I can't explain it. It was like solving a really hard math equation before everyone else but not saying anything and just knowing that you did it. you get this floaty feeling and then that huge goofy grin appears on your face... i know it doesn't seem like anything but to you t is...i mean she just had her night sitting with me and the next day she seemed i dont know like she'd just talked with my grandpa. It's like he was there and he comforted both of us.

I mean i couldn't even imagine... when someone so close to you dies it seems almost impossible to forget it or move on. I've seen it hurt people so deeply and well...it's the weirdest thing. For some death is just death... but i think it's the scariest thing i will, in any aspect, ever encounter.

Saturdays...

i'm exhausted..but it's ok...friday night... You know those nights you just never want to forget...what if you couldn't remember things that happened to you. You wouldn't be who you are today. Imagine...and while your doing that here's a taste of a night i will surely never forget...

Oh homecoming was so amazing. I can't tell you how i pictured this years homecoming... definitely not how it turned out but...im glad it didn't. From the close game to the ride around town it got pretty "bumpy"... totally fun. And then it went on to the dinking around like fools and the "white sensation" outside. so now that that's out of our systems it's now 4 in the morning and all i can think about is getting up to prepare for the soccer game in less than 3 hours...thats surely a way to dampen the mood. But my friends achieved the impossible and got me wide awake thanks to our still wide awake minds. it's finally 6:30... time to hit the dusty trail. and im trekking it home along with my zombie partner. what a sight.
half asleep im thinking groggy thoughts such as I wish we would have recorded this moment as im sure we sounded like we'd gotten into a tank of laughing gas, and what about my game. oh i almost forgot...maybe better left unsaid...as you can imagine. oh well it was worth it... now my head hurts and im off to bed. Saturday was heckish. Although there's another night to remember... :D

Richy RIch

Today i got a pair of jeans for about $25. Great deal. But what if your expenses were unlimited. What would you buy?

A brand new car, house, video games, tons of clothes... or maybe a heated toilet seat, a pool, an airplane!!! well you get the picture. Is all this stuff really necessary. Sure some of this stuff is great to have and all but really... ?Now think about all the people who can barely even feed themselves or their families everyday. and here you are sitting on your heated toilet seat. and ill give most of you credit cause quite honestly i can't think of a name of anyone i personally know like that. So props. But to those of you who are... I cannot handle it when you are worried about having name brand clothes and all these unnecessary gadgets when some people are , as we speak, begging for a loaf of bread....

Come on...

Tough Love...-minus the love

Last week marked my first week of school as a sophomore in high school. Great....or not. More so like prison. No off campus lunch so today i'll be eating cardboard pizza and drinking rotten milk...again. Oh and forget your "one" phone call at this prison. cell phones are a no go. If you forgot your assignment at home... good luck, your about to blow chunks... that stinks, your dog's sick... too bad ( of course you won't find this out till the bell rings and you are out of the "NO ZONE" That's right i said it "NO ZONE" i guess it's not completely horrible i mean 3 distinct areas you are allowed your cell phone. During your passing time during class. Like you don't have anything better to do like oh i don't know visiting the bathroom before your bladder explodes go to your locker and if there happens to be time actually talk to a friend. But what do you do. Like for everything someone ruined it for all of us.

You know who i'm talking about. Those people who- for whatever reason- think there cooler than the other side of the pillow. And think that the rules are for everyone but them. Of course it wasn't always like this. When a teacher tells you there's no cell phones while their talking just out of sheer respect what do they do. reach right for their cell phones. Oh it drives me bonkers. What's so important that you must text back. Of course you realize now that you should of waited 2 minutes. considering now if your phone is seen it's in the ever so friendly prison staffs' pockets.
Obviously this rule is beyond ridiculous to me... which is funny since i don't even have a cell phone myself... but i will give the school staff credit because it did get out of hand. But must you go so far?... There are some alternatives to be considered i'm sure. but all i'm saying is making everyone suffer in instances like these is loco. i know it's supoosed to be out of love but really..?

Maybe someday we'll learn...maybe.....oh i sure hope so..!

later haters...