We're getting old...

Wow so today i know of 3 people who got their license...it's awesome! It's crazy just going around town and seeing all the people you went to school with for all of these years driving. And while im still driving with my mom it won't be long till im out there too....hopefully. I keep reminiscing lately. And i miss it so much. I remember thinking i was so cool when i got to the middle school. And than thinking how crazy it will be when i turn 16 and can drive. And now i'm almost there...it's kind of scary to think in 2 years we'll all be (well most of us) out on our own. In college pursuing our careers, getting married and starting our families. It's almost a blur at least this year has been. These past 15 ...almost 16... years have been great.

An honest mistake...

You said you trusted me but did you really? Don't get me wrong it's not like I deserve it. Especially now. So if you didn't i understand. A mistake.... and an honest mistake at that. It wasn't only me...we all do it... matter of fact we've done it millions of times and i'm almost positive you knew all along. But why is it now that it's down on paper your like this? You don't believe me....and i thought for sure you would be the one who would. I thought you would take my side in all this nonsense but you've turned the tables back on me...Well now i know.

The times they are a changin...

Come gather now people wherever you roam and admit that the waters around you have grown, and accepted that soon we'll be drenched to the bone, if your time to you is worth saving than you better start swimming or you'll sink like a stone. For the times they are a changing.


Everything is different. Not necessarily in a bad way. How can a great game of phase 10 lasting until deep in the night turn to this? How can one best friend drift and so quickly be replaced? How can I hang out with you every night of everyday?
It almost drives me crazy how i can see you changing and yet i'm unable to do a thing. Or how now that i've sat here and reflected i could have seen this months ago. but i didn't until now....it was so obvious and i didn't even get a hint of suspicion. I was too busy with my own drama. I put you last when really you should have been first because i know i was probably near yours. But i can't help but think this is supposed to happen and there's not much we can do about it. These changes are all happening so fast...


Another Rant...

Looking...

Late at night...8:30 to be exact...you were there. I told you everything and we reflected. When the night was complete i felt amazing. Flying high somewhere way above all the problems. When really we were just laying in the grass. Why it felt so amazing im not really sure....you were like a drug i quickly became addicted. But it wasn't hard to break away from you. Things were changing. New friends, later and longer nights, a new home. I wasn't there with you i ditched you too many times to name. What was almost nightly went to none in less than a few weeks. It would seem i traded you for something better. I want to say that but it still seems i lost a lot when i lost you. One day i hoep i find you again...

Evil little man...

Shoot me now....Yeah that's right pull the trigger. No worries...im just done with that evil little man...drama.

It drives me nuts...absolutely nuts. I try to avoid the drama but lately it seems like it consumes my life. I wake up every morning and get up and something is there...i feel his presence. And as much as i fight back he won't go away. And the sad thing is i think i know whose brought this evil little man into my life. But even though he bothers me you don't. Never really. And i don't want to lose your friendship.It makes absolutely no sense at all...maybe we can figure this out and destory that evil little man.