White as a ghost.....

im sick of your mind games.....seriously im done. Just say how you feel...just because you make it so i can't...you scared me you know...you really did. And the image keeps playing over and over in my mind. I can't be around you anymore. I really can't. i can't even talk to you...it's that ridiculous. Your crabby so what?? don't take it out on me....it scarring, it's horrible, it's sad. You just don't get it...i watch everything go right through you...your a ghost. You mise well not be here at all. All you do is sit there and yell and say things that simply should not be said. And you wonder why there's this "tension"....really how do you not see it?....I know i'm not the only one who sees this there's numerous but there all too scared to speak up....
I asked you one question... ONE. And this all happened.This sounds so cliche....but your ruining "it"....all of it. but you probably don't even care.

The biggest let down...

Why do you do it? You know your just gonna get let down again...but theres a certain spark, a flicker of hope i guess and you go for it...everytime. You fall in that hole and get hurt....everytime. And when you finally get out it's like you almost willingly jump right back in... Why don't you think about it?...Why do you fall for their clever tricks...there good...yes i'll admit there really good, but your better. I see it tear you up inside. It's sad. I see it get you so down that you dont even want to do anything but sit there. Its hard to watch. You've learned to hate the ones you love...well should love. But do you?...you say you do...well do you??...i want you to figure it out. It seems like it would almost be easier for you to get somewhere in life...cause it's holding you back... if you hadn't noticed...Once again your better than this...so much better. Come back to the way you used to be...when it all didn't seem so hard...cause your destined for so much better...i know it.